Is there someone in your life right now who could use a little extra LOVE? Maybe a family member, co-worker, friend or neighbour. Perhaps it is you.
For years I suffered alone, not knowing what was wrong or how to fix my problem. Right there tells you a lot about how we suffer. The idea of needing to ‘fix a problem’ in my eyes is what caused many of my illnesses in the past.
When I was 26 years old, my anxiety was at its highest point. The presence of fear, worry, uneasiness and dread was my dominate energy. My symptoms would tighten even more every time I was faced with a position where I lacked the ability to control the outcome.
Here are a few examples of when my anxiety was at its worse:
Essentially I had learned helplessness where I perceived these moments as threats and allowed my fearful thoughts to cause a chain reaction of internal and external results leaving me in utter panic, sweats, throat closures and dizziness.
For years I cried myself to sleep suffering in darkness when one day I realized I had a choice. I had a choice to continue fighting the darkness and looking for ways to remove it from my world OR I could start putting some attention, energy and focus on what sources of LIGHT I could bring in.
This idea of bringing in sources of LIGHT without needing to eliminate anything in my life was when I discovered the true essence of self. I now know, I was never out of control, because control is only an illusion created by our own minds.
My mind loved feeding off my fears and continually dominating my thoughts.
When is it going to be my turn to be happy?
I am so tired of feeling sad all the time?
Why do bad things always happen to me?
Sources of LIGHT, Sources of LIGHT, Sources of LIGHT = Freedom from the negative mind
I began to look at all my actions as potential sources of LIGHT for myself. For years I strengthened my ability to see the feelings I was having before taking action and noticed I always had a choice.
BETWEEN your FEELINGS & ACTIONS there is space for you to notice your choice. You either have a choice that is positive or negative. The more you choose the positive without feeling the need to eliminate the negative, it starts to get easier to choose the positive.
Eventually, I began to expand the space between how I felt and the actions I was taking to where most of my thoughts began to be dominated by positives in the form of LOVE for myself.
I used nature and food as my two main sources of connection to my true essence of self to continue to heal my depression and anxiety.
I have spent the past 10 years as a nutritional researcher learning all about living foods. I have also spent the same amount of time on the rock, climbing as much as possible. To me, eating food that is alive and playing in nature are my sources of mediation as well as continual ACTS of LOVE for myself.
I will say that on occasion, while riding the lifts in Whistler or taking my car for a car wash, I will get the odd, old pattern thought creep into my mind.
Oh Know, it’s still here. You have no control over this. Where is your way out?
BUT, then I notice my feeling, usually fear, and I face it. I choose to be with the feeling of fear, notice what my opposite choice to fear is, and allow the positive source of light to wash the fear away and lead my action to come.
Usually its followed by a smile and a wink to myself in the rear view mirror.
If you or someone you know would like to learn my tools and systems on how I overcame anxiety while creating abundance in your life, I would love to share them with you.
Email me at firstname.lastname@example.org you interest and I will let you know about my new telecoaching service.
Here is a video to show you how far I have come facing my fears and doing it anyway.
Here is a great resource I used several years ago that was a big help. I highly recommend picking up a copy of Susan Jeffers book – Feel the Fear & Do It Anyway.